Anchor by Novo Amor

I first heard the song, Anchor by Novo Amor, as background music to the Taltz skin medication commercials. I recently looked the song up on Youtube to hear the whole thing and was instantly enraptured by the short film that accompanied it. I find it haunting in a very soothing way. The plot is a familiar one that I’ve read many times over in folktales but the visuals of this telling leave me eerily enchanted.

It’s the smiles of the fisherman that strikes me the most. the smile as he’s toweling dry the girl’s hair, anchors me in a way that I can’t quite describe at the moment.

Took the breath from my open mouth,
Never known how it broke me down,
I went in circles somewhere else



I Can Still Remember

A long long time ago, I can still remember how that music used to make me smile. And I knew if I had my chance, I could make those people dance and maybe they’d be happy for awhile~Don McLean, American Pie

When I was young, my grandmother gave me all of my aunt’s 45 rpm single records. Up until that point, I had been listening to nursery rhyme type songs on my little portable record player. I went from ‘How much is that doggie in the window?’ to Elvis Presley lamenting that his letter kept getting sent back , David Cassidy being afraid of love , Joan Baez teaching me about  the Civil War , or The Animals warning me not to get sent to prison , and many fun  silly songs in between. Soon, my favorite pastime became lip-syncing to the songs as I danced around, trying to reenact the lyrics. I could play a mean fake piano during The Entertainer, as long as I was wearing my grandfather’s old fedora.

Once, when I was with my parents at a picnic, one of my mother’s musician friends was playing his guitar. I immediately recognized the tune to American Pie and I blurted out “I know that song!” He was skeptical, thinking I had just heard it on a commercial or something. But I said “No! I know all the words!” So then shy little me, the one who generally hid behind my mother’s legs, proceeded to sing every single word just to prove him wrong.

I still have most of those RPMs, though I rarely play them anymore. I still sing many of them, while I’m doing mundane tasks like emptying the dishwasher or ironing clothes. I tend to get really into singing them though, which makes my tasks take extra long to do. Oh, well. If you can’t whistle while you work (because I can’t whistle) belt out the words to ‘The Night Chicago Died’ instead! In over dramatic fashion, of course, complete with siren sound effects…


Liebster: take two

I have officially been nominated for the Liebster Award by SueBC of the ‘I’m Feeling This’ blog. I say ‘officially’ because the questions I recently answered in relation to the Liebster Award were a general shout out from zees muse to anyone who wanted to answer them; this time, SueBC nominated me directly.

for me? thanks!


One of the stipulations of this blogging award is that you not only answer the questions presented to you, but you then come up with a set of questions for the 5 other blogs that you nominate. Problem is, the blogs I read have either already been nominated or they don’t like to participate in these question/answer type of challenges. I can NOT pass up the opportunity to answer a blogging questionnaire though, so I will forfeit the ‘award’ but answer the questions anyway!

don’t look at me like that! I’m just tweaking the rules to suit me…


The first few questions are duplicates from the set I answered for zees muse, but I will be giving different answers this time around. I very rarely have just one favorite anything, so it’s not like I’ll be wracking my brain to come up with more answers!

Raindrops on Roses or Whiskers on Kittens? this is so hard!


1.) What is the best movie you have seen in the past year?

Does this question mean ‘best new release’ or just any movie that I’ve seen for the first time recently? If it’s the latter, then that would definitely be ‘The Guest’, which I wrote a little about here. If it’s ‘best newer release’, then my answer is: Doctor Strange. I really enjoy the Marvel movies but for some reason I had low expectations for this one. Benedict Cumberbatch proved me so wrong, I am very happy to say! I loved his look, I loved his accent, I loved the way I started out scoffing at the character’s selfish arrogance but grew to feel so warmly towards him by the end. I thought Tilda Swinton and Mads Mikkelsen were excellent as well.


2.) What is the most memorable live theatre and/or concert experience you’ve had in the past year?

My daughter’s Spring Concert for Middle School Choir. I was really impressed with the selections, particularly Michael Jackson’s ‘Man in the Mirror’ and Queen’s ‘Bohemian Rhapsody’.

they did both


3.) What is the best book you’ve read in the past year?

Truthfully, I’ve not read anything in the past year that could qualify. I did stumble across a Twilight fanfic that I really enjoyed though, and ended up reading more than once. It was called ‘Because of a Boy’. The story centered around a single mother of a child with Asperger’s, who meets and falls in love with a man whose father has Asperger’s as well. It made me cry several times throughout the story, not in sadness, but more for the way the families acknowledged and adapted to their circumstances so willingly. Edward understood the little boy in a way that most others could not because he had grown up with a father who was so similar. Edward not only loved his father but he genuinely liked being around him, and so he always made time for him. On the flip side, Bella was able to understand Edward’s father in a way that he never experienced as a young boy, because his parents were not as understanding and accepting as she was. One of my favorite aspects of the story was the way that Edward’s father called him several times a day to inform him of random facts. Because of this, Edward was able to bond with Bella’s son in the same way, the two often trying to stump each other. The story really touched me because of my struggles with anxiety as a child, and just imagining how much easier things could have been if I didn’t feel like I had to hide it all of the time. That, and the fact that the phrase ‘did you know’ is one that my husband and children are quite familiar with…speaking of, did you know that ‘Google’ is a misspelling of the term ‘googol’, which is the number 10 raised to the 100th power? Dan Stevens taught me that.


4.) What is your favorite photo of the past week on your mobile phone and are you willing to share it?

My son completed his Eagle Scout rank for Boy Scouts. This photo was taken at the ceremony, of him awarding me my ‘Mother’s Pin’. It’s funny to me because I had just fumbled with the pin I placed on his uniform; I couldn’t figure out how it worked (you had to push, then pull). So when it was his turn, he didn’t know how it worked either and I had to show him.


5.) What is your favorite photo ever of your favorite actor/actress?

I’m supposed to pick just one photo? Ha! That’s not happening. I’ll narrow it down to 3 instead:

and anytime he makes the ‘confused’ face, because I love the raised eyebrow.


6.) What songs are at the top of your playlist right now?

Two different songs by Sara Bareilles. The Light because I think it’s a beautiful song, both musically and lyrically.

You are the air in my breath, filling up my love soaked lungs
Such a beautiful mess, intertwined and overrun
Nothing better than this, knowing that the storm can come
You feel just like the sun
Just like the sun


and ‘I Choose You’ because I find the beat uplifting and the lyrics optimistic.
‘I could live by the light in your eyes’


7.) What is the most recent TV show that you binge-watched?

The Fall: season 3. And it was so good! I was nervous, with it being the last season and the assumption that Paul Spector would probably die. It was a lot more exciting than I anticipated, and Jamie Dornan delivered with some incredible eye acting! It feels wrong to say I ‘enjoyed’ the ending but I liked the way it turned out, and I really can’t imagine an alternate ending that would stay true to the story. All in all, this last batch of episodes was one of those rare times for me when the anticipation payed off.


8.) What time of day do you usually write and/or blog and why?

I do the writing part in the morning, because it’s quiet and I have time to myself without anything distracting me. Sometimes I post directly afterwards, while other times I’ll wait and just plug in the pics and post it in the evening before I sign off for the night (so that I can’t change my mind!)

me, before I hit ‘submit’


9.) Does your avatar have special significance and if so, what is that significance?

Yes. The ‘DS’ image is a prop (a ring) from the television show Lost, which is my all time favorite show. ‘DS’ also happens to be the initials of my last name (I have one of those capital-lowercase-capital surnames).
Dominic Monaghan as Charlie Pace


10.) In your real life, how open are you about the fact that you have a blog?

In discussions that relate to fandom, blogging or the internet, I might mention that I blog in order to help illustrate a point, but I don’t elaborate about the blog itself/what I blog about unless I’m asked about it further (which I’m usually not). It’s not so much that I’m hiding it (though I don’t exactly want to shout it from the rooftops either) but just that I don’t normally share information about myself that isn’t relevant to the conversation at hand.

I have a blog. I write about actors and movies. It’s a hobby.


11.) What are the boundaries for you in terms of how much of your real life you share on your blog?

I have shared personal stories on this blog in the past, in answer to writing prompts but I don’t refer to the people in my stories by their names, just their relationship to me; it seems like the polite thing to do. I’m pretty open about who I am in real life, I don’t blog under an alter ego because I really have no reason to. I might say some embarrassing things sometimes in relation to fangirling but generally I’m rather mild. I have thought about how therapeutic it could be to blog about more personal things, get the negativity off of my chest and out of my system, but I wouldn’t want to hurt the people I talked about. Plus, I’m afraid if I started, it would become a habit of complaining. I’ve burned my fair share of bridges on Facebook, I’ll stick to blogging about actors/movies and retweeting on Twitter instead, it’s safer!


So Many Wasted Hours

I felt a connection to one of Jamie Dornan’s songs and it inspired me to blog about him. I’ve since downloaded several songs by Sons of Jim and have been happily enjoying them. but I’ve hit a snag. I’m not exactly sure what the lyrics are to the chorus of My Burning Sun. I thought I knew what they were but then I ran across a set of lyrics on the net and…they’re different. the horror!

no, this is horror! vampires who entice kids with drugs and dancing; they're old enough to know better...
horror? more like cheese with a side of craic


So I set to work and kicked my obsessive self into over-drive, listening to the song over and over: stopping, jumping ahead, jumping behind. I sought the aid of friends and even my 10 year old daughter, yet we’re still at an impasse.

I think song lyrics are the least of your problems.
I think song lyrics are the least of your problems.


Here’s my dilemma (click on this link, if you feel like humoring me): during the chorus when the song says

don’t tell me you can’t see you’re everything___

the lyrics are cited as being “and everyone”, while I think it’s “I’d ever want”. I like my way better. “everything and everyone” is a bit presumptuous, don’t you think? this person may be great but is she better than everything and everyone? whereas if she were better than everything he’d ever want, that’s more personal and thus more meaningful. now I know what you’re thinking, and the answer is: yes, I do make things more difficult then they have to be. let’s leave that alone for now though, and move on to some other parts of the song.

by all means. let's tear it all apart!
by all means. let’s tear it apart!


Before the chorus we hear:

___don’t ever pacify

the lyrics I’ve read state it as being “a cigaret and some chocolate”, while I clearly hear just “cigarettes and chocolate”. that moves on into:

there’s gotta be some daylight through the darkest sky, you could make it__

I think it says “light”, while it’s suggested that it’s “alive”. light just makes more sense to me. if he’s searching for some light through the darkness, then she could be that light. then after the chorus it says:

so many wasted hours, __and__

it’s suggested that the lyrics are “letdowns and burnouts”. I’m just going to go with that because I’m not really sure what that first word is. letdowns does make sense within context, so I’m good with that one (see, I’m not always difficult!)

Jamie's trying to remember what the lyrics actually are...
Jamie, trying to remember what the lyrics actually are


I mean no disrespect to the person(s) who submitted these lyrics for the song. I could be totally out in left field, chasing butterflies instead of catching home runs. it has happened before: once, when I was trying to figure out the lyrics to Natalie Merchant’s The Lowlands of Holland – I didn’t have internet access then, hard to imagine now. did I truly know anything before Google?

there are how many burger joints near me? how could I not know this?!
there are how many burger joints near me? why did I not know this?!


anyways, I was having trouble with the line “to fight the enemy”. instead of “enemy”, I got “anemone” stuck in my head and just couldn’t hear anything else. I knew that was ridiculous, the soldier in the song wasn’t going to leave his marriage bed to go off and fight sea anemones! my mind likes to sabotage itself. routinely & often.

"I can't stand it. I know you planned it"
‘I can’t stand it, I know you planned it’


do I have a point to this winding post? not really. I’d just like to say that if my guess at the lyrics are wrong, they should be changed. that’s free advice, Jamie, no charge. because I like you so much. even if others can’t understand what you’re singing…



My Burning Sun

After I spent a whole weekend binge-watching Jamie Dornan in The Fall, I decided I wanted to know more about him. I went the usual route of finding fan archive-type sites and browsing through interviews on YouTube. It didn’t take long before I discovered something that definitely peaked my interest: Jamie is musically inclined. That’s a soft spot for me and so I was thrilled, especially when I heard a recording of “My Burning Sun”. I liked the upbeat tempo of the song, the style, and the lyrics. The sentiment was rather serendipitous and mirrored not only my increasing curiosity about Jamie, but also the spark he seemed to light in me that’s been dulled as of late.

it’s no coincidence the rain is gone
and you’ve become my burning sun



If this is “terrible”, like Jamie claims, then I have crap taste in music because I really like it! We’re our own worst critics, so I’m just going to ignore Jamie’s personal critique.


I like the rawness of a good acoustic song, one that you can feel through those seeming “flaws”. that’s what gives it personality, heart, and that’s what speaks to me. The caressing vocals of ‘Fairytale’, and haunting melody of ‘All the Wrong Answers’ had no problem grabbing me and pulling me in. Sons of Jim, though now defunct, have found themselves a new fan.
David Alexander and Jamie Dornan of “Sons of Jim”
David Alexander and Jamie Dornan, ‘Sons of Jim’