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So it seems the Liebster Award questionnaire is going around again. I participated in this a few years ago with music related questions. I always find it fun to answer questions, of any kind, so when zee’s muse suggested her readers answer a set, I thought “why not?”

because I have things to say, dan it! (that was a Freudian slip but I’m leaving it there)


Zee is a friend from the Richard Armitage fandom but I’m going to pepper my answers with Dan Stevens gifs, because they’ve been accumulating on my hard drive with no occasion for me to use them. I hope she doesn’t mind.

mind? IKR


1.) What excites you at the moment?

Dan Stevens.

those eyes

that… everything


2.) In one sentence, what depresses you at the moment?

In one year, my son will graduate High School.

yesterday he was 14, today he’s 17. there’s sorcery involved, I’m sure of it!


3.) Cats or Dogs? piccies please.



4.) What tv series did you love in your youth?

Mork & Mindy

5.) Who is your favorite actor/actress no longer living?

Jimmy Stewart

6.) What is the best movie you’ve seen so far in 2017?


7.) The top three theatre/concert experiences you’ve ever had.


B-52s, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Lollapalooza


B-52s because it was a small turn out & it started to rain, so they invited those out on the lawn to move into the pavilion & then encouraged us to stand on the seats and just have a silly good time.


Rocky Horror Picture Show because I went several times and it was always late at night (Midnight showing) so everyone I was with tended to get slap happy. Drinking over caffeinated Jolt helped as well, I’m sure.


Lollapalooza because I got to see Red Hot Chili Peppers and Pearl Jam in the same concert, while also being totally grossed out by people shoving nails up their noses and swallowing fire on the side show stages.

not really but it was memorable!


8.) What is the best book you’ve read in the past year?

see, here’s the thing…

I can’t remember what it was called. I know it was a romance novel about a psychic that saw a little boy & his dog lost in the wilderness. She connects him to a bachelor rancher, convinced that he’s his son, but the rancher doesn’t believe her until a story hits the news about a senator & his family missing due to a boating accident, and the Senator’s fiancee just so happens to be someone this rancher had a long term relationship with. Anyway, my Mother-in-Law left it at my house, so I read it, and it was surprisingly good.

9.) What is your favorite photo of the last week on your mobile phone and are you willing to share it?

I don’t have a mobile phone. I share one with my husband and only use it to text my son when he’s late for dinner. If I tweak the question to apply to my laptop though, this is the latest pic I saved:

I was bored and so on a whim, I typed my very small hometown (population: 500) into Google Images and found this pic of my favorite thing to play on at the playground when I was young. The internet is a wonderful thing.

10.) my favorite dessert?



11.) Favorite Richard Armitage pictures

At the end of Zee’s post she hinted that her questions from the last Liebster round never got answered and so maybe someone would feel moved to do so this time around. I picked 5 off of that list.

1) A gift you regifted (and how quickly and why?)

A one piece hat/scarf thing from my Mother-in-Law.

It was very soft and pretty but not my style at all so I regifted it, just a few weeks later, to my friend. Because she actually dresses like a woman instead of a 15 year old boy, like me.

someone who will choose comfort over fashion every.single.time.


2) Balin or Oin?


because he looks like Santa Claus


3) Do you REALLY want to see the Silmarillion done in movie(s)?

Yes, so I can finally understand what’s going on.

me, pretending the timeline doesn’t confuzzle me


4) Mozart or Haydn or Beethoven? (Cross your eyes if you can’t tell the difference)

Who’s Haydn?

Zee, the music teacher, being so done with me.


5.) Your New Year’s Resolution list

seeing as how it’s May and not January, my ‘Summer’ to do list is:

-lose 30 pounds

-organize my photo albums

-Iron all the shirts (some have been in the basket for two years and counting)

don’t judge me!


Bonus, because Zee likes Beefcake



Posted by on May 20, 2017 in Miscellaneous


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this thing of mine

[The ‘Yours in Armitage’ series is a collection of posts documenting my changing perceptions about my celebrity crush on Richard Armitage, using excerpts from past correspondence to help me come to terms with the uncertainties.]

When I first started this series of posts, the purpose was to document my mindset as I struggled with changing perceptions about my celebrity crush and to help me come to terms with the uncertainties. I think it’s served it’s purpose in that way but it’s also made me look more closely at my history of fangirling in general, the patterns of behavior I’ve exhibited through the years with various crushes, and the whys and hows of it all. I’ve been aware of the things that drew me to certain crushes and the role they were playing in my life at that time, but I never really explored the overall mechanics of why it worked for me, and what happened to me internally when I moved on from one crush to another. so in that way, these posts ended up encompassing more than just my Richard Armitage experience. it’s been interesting for me to delve into these things, and it’s brought up a lot of points that I will continue to ponder. because I know I will continue this hobby with actors other than Richard Armitage. but this introspection has taught me that I don’t have to leave one behind for another, that I don’t have to establish a hierarchy, that I can be as intense or as casual as I feel drawn to be.

Just a few weeks ago I talked about taking the casual route to fangirling, how I now find myself preferring to only know ‘just enough’ about a crush in order to maintain a healthy level for myself; only ‘so much & no more’ or things can get out of hand. I also said, just last week, that I will try picking & choosing what I like and leave the rest by the wayside. but in knowing myself like I do, I know there will be times when I crave the intensity, the days/weeks/months when I want to lose myself in the research of a new crush. and that’s okay too.

This thing of mine will continue because it works for me, even if I don’t fully understand how it does. from my prolonged admiration of Christian Bale, through the escapism of Robert Pattinson, to the intensity of Richard Armitage, and the casualness of Jamie Dornan; to every ‘crush’ there is a season. what matters right now is that, with the help of this blog, I’ve been able to sift through the feelings of confusion that I was experiencing for not being able to hold on to the intensity of this crush. and the conflicting emotions that brought about.

  • do I prefer intensity or ease?
  • must it be either/or?
  • is one better than the other?
  • is it the actor himself or what I’m craving at the time?
  • I haven’t been sparked in awhile, will it happen again?

I’m sure I will continue to ponder these things, but the goal of working through the Richard Armitage aspect on this blog has been met. I’ve found it extremely helpful. I’m now at a place where I can enjoy him again, without all of that baggage in tow. there is a better balance of positives and negatives now, concerning Richard and this hobby of mine in general.

I like to admire actors,

they give us those nice bright colors, they give us the greens of summers, makes you think all the world’s a sunny day.

Thank you for reading! and here’s to many more days/weeks/months(years) of fangirling ahead.

Yours in Armitage,




Posted by on April 4, 2017 in Self


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Richard is

[The ‘Yours in Armitage’ series is a collection of posts documenting my changing perceptions about my celebrity crush on Richard Armitage, using excerpts from past correspondence to help me come to terms with the uncertainties.]


January 27, 2013- Richard is well-mannered, genuinely nice, a bit shy & reserved, but passionate about his acting. he’s all around lovely and he makes me smile a lot.



I wrote that to a friend at the very beginning of my crush on Richard Armitage. it still holds true for me, most days. I think I’ve always known that I wouldn’t be able to get back to those early ‘struck by lightening’ days of crushing on Richard, but part of me still held out hope that I could find my way back there. that’s why I started these posts, to get past the roadblocks that were keeping me from that place. along the way I’ve identified some of my issues and have been able to move past them. they’re not gone, but I’m aware of them now and can better navigate around them. the sun didn’t suddenly appear and light my way but I feel less confused, less pessimistic than I did before.

I’ve opened myself up to the concept of picking & choosing what I like and leaving the rest by the wayside. I’ve not really done that in fangirling before, not really. I’ve tried the ‘less I know the better’ route but it’s hard to reign in my natural curiosity. in the end, I always end up feeling like I need to like everything about the actor, or at least be able to convince myself that there was a good reason for the negatives that I couldn’t seem to ignore. when too many excuses pile up, I move on rather than admit to them. once I’m invested in a new crush, then I can be honest about the old ones, but not until then. I still follow the careers of past crushes and rejoice in their well being, I just don’t follow as closely as I once did. I no longer invest myself, because I no longer identify with them.

I find something in these actors that resonates with me, I see traits that we share in common, I live through them in various ways. this is why I hold them to such high standards because I see them as a different version of me, a better version. when they embody the worst of me, well, I don’t want to admit that we share those traits too. it’s like hearing my recorded voice played back to me or seeing myself in home movies. no, thanks! we would all rather see the best of ourselves on display. I’m not sure I can remove the identity issue from my fangirling but I want to give it less power. I want to be a fan of Richard Armitage, but I don’t want him to define me.

I’ll never be able to recapture those early days, and that’s okay. I’ve realized that the valleys are satisfying in their own ways, maybe not as intense as the highs, but longer lasting. this crush has certainly taught me more about myself than any of the others, and I like that. I want more of that. to thine own self be true.

Yours in Armitage,



Posted by on March 28, 2017 in Self


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it’s complicated

[The ‘Yours in Armitage’ series is a collection of posts documenting my changing perceptions about my celebrity crush on Richard Armitage, using excerpts from past correspondence to help me come to terms with the uncertainties.]


July 5, 2016- I can’t seem to quit Richard. I guess I’ll label my fangirl status as ‘it’s complicated’ and just take what comes. when I first heard his words describing love in the Audible interview, I felt bad for him. I thought, what stressful relationships has this man been in to make him think of love in this way? but now I kind of get it. it does a good job describing the push & pull I’ve felt this past year in regards to him.


I’ve stated previously that I’ve crushed on other actors before Richard Armitage. in most cases, my fangirl feelings started to slowly fade and ended up transferring onto another actor, without too many bumps along the way. Leonardo DiCaprio stepped aside for Ewan McGregor, who stepped aside for Christian Bale, who stepped aside for Robert Pattinson. after Rob though, I actually went looking for a different crush, it didn’t just happen. I was looking for something specific and I found that in Richard. before long, Jamie Dornan showed up and has been running parallel to Richard, but Richard deviated from the pattern because no one stepped aside for him; there was already a void that needing filling when I found him. maybe that has some bearing on why I’ve dug my heels in this time, why I’m resisting any kind of transition. I don’t understand the ‘why’ of it yet.

Yours in Armitage,



Posted by on March 22, 2017 in Self


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some are assuming I’m going to leave Richard behind

[The ‘Yours in Armitage’ series is a collection of posts documenting my changing perceptions about my celebrity crush on Richard Armitage, using excerpts from past correspondence to help me come to terms with the uncertainties.]


July 29, 2015- I know some are assuming I’m going to leave Richard behind and chase Jamie Dornan instead, but I’m not going to throw myself into another obsession like that (fandom, fan-blog, etc.) I just don’t have the energy!


Being part of a fandom does take energy, whether you’re creating and posting or following and commenting, but the interaction can be beneficial. it can also be tiring at times, frustrating, a responsibility that I don’t always want to deal with. especially if I lose track of Richard in the process. that may sound odd, how can Richard get lost within his own fandom? it literally revolves around him! but sometimes it becomes more about fan interaction than the object of our affection. that’s not always a bad thing, many fans say that’s a plus for them, they came here for Richard but stay for the fans. it’s a heartwarming thought but it’s not true for me. I enjoy the fans, but I need Richard; he’s why I’m here.

I’ve been involved in three different fandoms in my time online as a fangirl. each experience has been unique, but not, at the same time. overall there have been more pros than cons, but there’s something they’ve all shared: ‘curiosity killed the cat’; the more I know about the crush, the higher my expectations rise. my quest to acquire insight into what makes them tick and how that influences their acting, creating a depth that continually draws me to them, can sometimes backfire into raising my expectations to unattainable levels; my pedestals are high. so with Jamie Dornan, I decided to adjust my approach. I switched from ‘all’ to ‘just enough’ instead. know just enough about him to draw me in, just enough to keep me interested, just enough to touch me in a meaningful way.

I’m not part of the Jamie Dornan fandom. I follow a few fan accounts on Twitter but no blogs, forums, or fan groups. my interaction with the fandom is zero. the Twitter accounts keep me updated on current happenings, but I mostly follow them for the random pictures and quotes that they post. this way, I never lose track of Jamie, or myself. this has carried over into my side interests as well, those ‘for the moment’ actors that I’m curious about and follow for awhile. I feel an even less need to know about their personal lives/background than I did before. a quick run down of their career and a general feel for their off screen personality is usually all it takes to satisfy me these days. I’m done with the extensive biographies, the unabridged list of interviews and appearances, the clothing portfolios. I like not knowing. I like being surprised.

I’m not joining another fandom, I like this one. I’m not trading Richard Armitage for Jamie Dornan, I can keep them both. my need for absolutes is changing. I’m giving myself permission to just like what I like. it sounds simple, but for me, it’s a big step.

Yours in Armitage,



Posted by on March 16, 2017 in Self


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