-a recent dream of Richard Armitage-
-a recent dream of Richard Armitage-
If you’re anything like me, then you aren’t just crushing on your alternate universe bae because of his looks or the characters he plays on screen, but also for what he shows of himself in interviews and appearances- his sense of humor and playfulness, his intelligence and professionalism, his gentlemanly manners, his likes and dislikes; the clay we use to sculpt him into our perfect match. as our admiration grows and blossoms, we look forward to spending time with our crush through video interviews and photographs. we regularly indulge in his talent with his movies, television roles, and audio recordings. we’re so proud of our guy! we want to show him off like parents with a portfolio of pictures in our wallets. so we tweet and we blog and we Tumblr, and we read other tweets and blogs and Tumblrs from people who are just as proud. well, maybe not just as proud because we all know that no one loves him as much as we do, but they think they do, so we humor them. it’s good, it’s great, it’s wonderful! until somewhere down the line, it starts to unravel.
maybe we’re not as interested in every single project he signs on for anymore. maybe we’ve seen so many photos of him that we start scrolling past when they show up in our timelines. maybe those other fans start annoying us with their drama, their misinformation, or their overuse of exclamation points. so we mute a few accounts, prune our subscriptions, limit our visits to all those Tumblrs. sometimes these changes are enough, distance makes the heart grow fonder. but sometimes a quick fix won’t do.
In the summer of 2012, I was blindsided by the news that Kristen Stewart had been caught cheating on Robert Pattinson. I felt betrayed on his behalf, I felt disappointed when he didn’t automatically break up with her, I felt relieved that I now had something to blame. I had been waiting for a push, a reason to move on from my crush on Rob and the Twilight fandom, and here it was. so I left. it’s not you, it’s me. I just don’t feel the way I used to. it’s better this way. it took a long time before seeing his picture brought nostalgic smiles instead of frowns, but it did happen. it was an odd reaction for me to take it so personally, I’m not really sure why I did. I was not a Robsten shipper, my dreams were not shattered by their relationship fail. it was just the last straw and I was mad that it was. I moved on quickly, and didn’t look back.
when Richard Armitage started disappointing me, it was a little different. I hid my head in the sand so that I wouldn’t see, I put my fingers in my ears so that I couldn’t hear, I misplaced my dissatisfaction onto other fan’s shoulders so that I wouldn’t have to admit to myself that it was the beginning of the end for me. I stepped back from the fandom, but that didn’t work. I threw myself back in, but that didn’t work. I found a backup bae to take some of the pressure off, but that didn’t really work either. I was stuck- no longer happy but refusing to move on. after taking an introspective look at myself, I was finally able to get there.
so if your guy no longer fits you anymore, it’s not as dire as it may seem. you’ll feel sad for awhile but odds are, you’ll find it all again with someone new, when you’re ready. and your new guy? he’ll be so swoony that you’ll wonder how you could have ever felt so strongly for those other guys. you’ll see.
Benedict Cumberbatch just became the new president of LAMDA(London Academy of Music & Dramatic Art). that’s an impressive accomplishment, congrats! how do I know this, since I’m not really a Cumberbatch fan? because I follow someone on Twitter who is. why do I follow a fan account of an actor I’m not interested in? because I enjoy her passion.
Once upon a time, when I was active on a Christian Bale forum, I became friendly with a fellow fan who adored the actor William Fichtner. he acted alongside Christian in ‘Equilibrium’ and also had a bit part in ‘The Dark Knight’. this fan loved to make manips/signatures/avatars of both Christian and William, so she started her own thread in the art area of the forum. it tended to be heavy on the Bill and light on the Chris, but I didn’t mind. I liked seeing the different ideas that she came up with and how she applied them.
Wm. Fichtner aka Badass Bank Manager, The Dark Knight:
On the Twilight fan forum, we had a chat area where we would talk about anything and everything, from Robert Pattinson’s button fly jeans
to how annoying our coworkers were. if any of us were following other actors alongside Rob & the Twilight gang, we’d routinely discuss them too. that’s how I found Richard Armitage. come to think of it, Matthew Crawley was sometimes mentioned as well, but I scrolled past him. sorry, Dan! I just wasn’t ready for you yet.
I like when fellow fans expose me to things I may not be familiar with, be that movies, television shows, books, music, or actors. I also find it insightful to read about fan experiences in other fandoms. The Lost fandom was constantly divided among Jack and Sawyer fans, much like Twilight and ‘Team Edward vs Team Jacob’. Outlander and Twilight share their zealot shipper wars, though Outlander has William Shatner fighting with them in their ring! Jamie Dornan fandom seems to get wrapped up in what is and is not acceptable content to post, often using the phrase ‘true fan’ to shame each other (I despise that phrase, I absolutely loathe it). Richard Armitage fandom shares many of these as well. each fandom likes to think they’re different, and they are to some extent, but we’re more the same than not.
So the Benedict Cumberbatch fan I follow on Twitter, or the Robert Downey Jr. fan I sometimes peek in on, or the former Robert Pattinson fan who is now all about Chris Evans, and the Dan Stevens fan who knows all the ins and outs of Star Wars, and that other one who idolizes Michelle Dockery, or the one who swoons over Jared Leto… thank you for sharing your passion with me. I hope no one ever dulls your shine.
SueBC of the I’m Feeling This blog has nominated me for The Mystery Blogger Award, but I’ll be breaking the chain by not following the rules…I didn’t know 10-20 bloggers even when I was active in the blogging community, let alone now, when I only read a handful regularly…I LOVE questionnaires, so I’m delighted to answer the questions anyway. I do like the description of the award, so I’m going to include that too.
“This is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates, it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging and they do it with so much love and passion.”
Okay, so first I’m supposed to tell you 3 things about myself. I never know what to say to this question because what I find interesting and what others find interesting are often completely different, so I’m just going to throw some random things out there:
1.) before I go to bed each night, I turn off the foyer light at the top of the stairs before I retire to my bedroom. the switch plate has two light switches on it, and I flip the wrong switch EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. I’ve lived in this house for 10 years.
2.) when I eat pudding, or ice cream out of a cup, I always turn the spoon upside down on the way to my mouth. I love the feeling of the curved spoon and the burst of flavor from laying it directly on my tongue. I’ve purposely tried not to do this, just to see how the other half lives, but I find it physically difficult.
3.) the lock-screen password on my laptop computer is a combination of my birth date and Richard Armitage’s.
and now on to the questions asked by SueBC:
French Fries. I especially like the fresh cut kind that still have some of the skin on them. my grandmother used to make them at home when I was young by heating oil in a cast iron skillet, but I’ve never tried that myself. I’ve dumped them in the counter top fryer or baked them in the oven but they never seem to turn out right, so I prefer eating them out at restaurants and festivals.
I’ve never been a fan of hot drinks, so if you asked me this question 6 months ago, I would have said neither. with my recent stomach ailments though, I’ve decided to give in and see how tea treats me. I’ve not drank it enough yet to have a routine of when or where I drink it, so for now it’s while reading.
Dan Stevens – Ice Cream Cone – Books
my favorite season is Autumn, and the first time I read the Lord Of The Rings was in Autumn. when the Hobbits set out on their journey it’s also Autumn, so I’ll pick The Fellowship of The Ring as my answer. I lived in Denver, Colorado for an autumn/winter season and the Aspen trees reminded me of Lothlorien.
Someone who understands Math and can easily apply it in every day life.
So it seems the Liebster Award questionnaire is going around again. I participated in this a few years ago with music related questions. I always find it fun to answer questions, of any kind, so when zee’s muse suggested her readers answer a set, I thought “why not?”
Zee is a friend from the Richard Armitage fandom but I’m going to pepper my answers with Dan Stevens gifs, because they’ve been accumulating on my hard drive with no occasion for me to use them. I hope she doesn’t mind.
1.) What excites you at the moment?
2.) In one sentence, what depresses you at the moment?
In one year, my son will graduate High School.
3.) Cats or Dogs? piccies please.
4.) What tv series did you love in your youth?
Mork & Mindy
5.) Who is your favorite actor/actress no longer living?
6.) What is the best movie you’ve seen so far in 2017?
8.) What is the best book you’ve read in the past year?
see, here’s the thing…
I can’t remember what it was called. I know it was a romance novel about a psychic that saw a little boy & his dog lost in the wilderness. She connects him to a bachelor rancher, convinced that he’s his son, but the rancher doesn’t believe her until a story hits the news about a senator & his family missing due to a boating accident, and the Senator’s fiancee just so happens to be someone this rancher had a long term relationship with. Anyway, my Mother-in-Law left it at my house, so I read it, and it was surprisingly good.
9.) What is your favorite photo of the last week on your mobile phone and are you willing to share it?
I don’t have a mobile phone. I share one with my husband and only use it to text my son when he’s late for dinner. If I tweak the question to apply to my laptop though, this is the latest pic I saved:
I was bored and so on a whim, I typed my very small hometown (population: 500) into Google Images and found this pic of my favorite thing to play on at the playground when I was young. The internet is a wonderful thing.
10.) my favorite dessert?
11.) Favorite Richard Armitage pictures
At the end of Zee’s post she hinted that her questions from the last Liebster round never got answered and so maybe someone would feel moved to do so this time around. I picked 5 off of that list.
1) A gift you regifted (and how quickly and why?)
A one piece hat/scarf thing from my Mother-in-Law.
It was very soft and pretty but not my style at all so I regifted it, just a few weeks later, to my friend. Because she actually dresses like a woman instead of a 15 year old boy, like me.
2) Balin or Oin?
3) Do you REALLY want to see the Silmarillion done in movie(s)?
Yes, so I can finally understand what’s going on.
4) Mozart or Haydn or Beethoven? (Cross your eyes if you can’t tell the difference)
5.) Your New Year’s Resolution list
seeing as how it’s May and not January, my ‘Summer’ to do list is:
-lose 30 pounds
-organize my photo albums
-Iron all the shirts (some have been in the basket for two years and counting)
Bonus, because Zee likes Beefcake