Fandom Asks: Lost

When it comes to favorite television shows, Lost is at the top for me. it is the epitome of character development, which makes it somewhat difficult to answer ‘favorite character’ questions about, because who each character is over the course of the story is constantly evolving. but I gave it my best shot anyway!


The First Character I First Fell In Love With: Jack Shephard
this question was easy to answer because Jack was my favorite character throughout all 6 seasons. he wasn’t always lovable, but his idealism and inner struggles made me relate to him so much. plus he’s a really good doctor, which is useful when you’re stuck on a deserted island.

The Character I Never Expected To Love As Much As I Do Now: Richard Alpert
Richard is a secondary character but the mystery behind him builds a little at a time, leaving you insanely curious about who he really is and how he fits into the foundation of the story. at times he’s friendly and helpful, at others he’s closed off and confusing, but his eye lashes are always mesmerizing.


The Character That Everyone Else Loves That I Don’t: Sawyer
he is the king of pop culture references but he’s a bully who is only concerned with himself, at least at first. Sawyer really evolves as a person, and plays an important part in other characters developments. I don’t dislike him, I just find the ‘beefcake’ part of his role completely overdone.


The Character I Love That Everyone Else Hates: Ana Lucia Cortez
she’s intense and badass and borderline scary, but she shares Jack’s struggle of being forced into a leadership role and then condemned for the choices no one else was willing to make.


The Character I Used To Love But Don’t Any Longer: Charlie Pace
Charlie was my favorite, behind Jack, for a long time (it’s his ring that is my ‘DS’ avatar). one hit wonder rock star that no one can seem to remember where they know him from. Charlie has good intentions that don’t always work out but he would do anything for Claire and her baby. and his redemption is iconic!


The Character I Would Totally Smooch: Desmond Hume
1.) Desmond has a Scottish accent
2.) Desmond can’t seem to button his shirts past his chest
3.) Desmond has the best character introduction, in the season 2 opener


The Character I’d Want To Be Like: Hugo Reyes
‘Hurley’ loves music and ranch dressing, is a loyal friend, and stays true to himself through all the hardships and obstacles. plus Cheech Marin plays his Dad.


The Character I’d Slap: Michael Dawson
I find Michael so annoying, and his parenting skills suck. he deludes himself into thinking he’s sacrificing so much for his son, when in reality he’s selfish and arrogant, and not a team player.


A Pairing That I Love: Jack Shephard & Sun-Hwa Kwon
this isn’t an actual pairing but it is one that I would have liked to see. Jack and Sun respect each other, understand each other, have compatible natures, and would have been very cute together. but alas, she was married and he was tethered to Kate.


Fav Fanvid: Tribute to Jack Shephard
this is a very long fanvid but so well done. it touches upon Jack’s struggles, and then changes tone to acknowledge the relationships he forged while on the island.
Last Pic You Saved: I don’t save pics of Lost anymore but this one has always been my favorite:
Jack is here because he has to do something. he can’t be told what that is. he’s got to find it himself. sometimes you can just hop in the back of someone’s cab and tell them what they’re supposed to do. other times, you have to let him look out at the ocean for awhile.
p.s. I loved the ending of the series. it couldn’t have ended any other way and still connect all the dots.

show me your passion

Benedict Cumberbatch just became the new president of LAMDA(London Academy of Music & Dramatic Art). that’s an impressive accomplishment, congrats! how do I know this, since I’m not really a Cumberbatch fan? because I follow someone on Twitter who is. why do I follow a fan account of an actor I’m not interested in? because I enjoy her passion.

this is not the Benedict that I know. show me more!

Once upon a time, when I was active on a Christian Bale forum, I became friendly with a fellow fan who adored the actor William Fichtner. he acted alongside Christian in ‘Equilibrium’ and also had a bit part in ‘The Dark Knight’. this fan loved to make manips/signatures/avatars of both Christian and William, so she started her own thread in the art area of the forum. it tended to be heavy on the Bill and light on the Chris, but I didn’t mind. I liked seeing the different ideas that she came up with and how she applied them.

Wm. Fichtner aka Badass Bank Manager, The Dark Knight:


On the Twilight fan forum, we had a chat area where we would talk about anything and everything, from Robert Pattinson’s button fly jeans

or just post pics when we couldn’t form words.

to how annoying our coworkers were. if any of us were following other actors alongside Rob & the Twilight gang, we’d routinely discuss them too. that’s how I found Richard Armitage. come to think of it, Matthew Crawley was sometimes mentioned as well, but I scrolled past him. sorry, Dan! I just wasn’t ready for you yet.

I’m here now. 5 years late.


I like when fellow fans expose me to things I may not be familiar with, be that movies, television shows, books, music, or actors. I also find it insightful to read about fan experiences in other fandoms. The Lost fandom was constantly divided among Jack and Sawyer fans, much like Twilight and ‘Team Edward vs Team Jacob’. Outlander and Twilight share their zealot shipper wars, though Outlander has William Shatner fighting with them in their ring! Jamie Dornan fandom seems to get wrapped up in what is and is not acceptable content to post, often using the phrase ‘true fan’ to shame each other (I despise that phrase, I absolutely loathe it). Richard Armitage fandom shares many of these as well. each fandom likes to think they’re different, and they are to some extent, but we’re more the same than not.

So the Benedict Cumberbatch fan I follow on Twitter, or the Robert Downey Jr. fan I sometimes peek in on, or the former Robert Pattinson fan who is now all about Chris Evans, and the Dan Stevens fan who knows all the ins and outs of Star Wars, and that other one who idolizes Michelle Dockery, or the one who swoons over Jared Leto… thank you for sharing your passion with me. I hope no one ever dulls your shine.


Liebster: take two

I have officially been nominated for the Liebster Award by SueBC of the ‘I’m Feeling This’ blog. I say ‘officially’ because the questions I recently answered in relation to the Liebster Award were a general shout out from zees muse to anyone who wanted to answer them; this time, SueBC nominated me directly.

for me? thanks!


One of the stipulations of this blogging award is that you not only answer the questions presented to you, but you then come up with a set of questions for the 5 other blogs that you nominate. Problem is, the blogs I read have either already been nominated or they don’t like to participate in these question/answer type of challenges. I can NOT pass up the opportunity to answer a blogging questionnaire though, so I will forfeit the ‘award’ but answer the questions anyway!

don’t look at me like that! I’m just tweaking the rules to suit me…


The first few questions are duplicates from the set I answered for zees muse, but I will be giving different answers this time around. I very rarely have just one favorite anything, so it’s not like I’ll be wracking my brain to come up with more answers!

Raindrops on Roses or Whiskers on Kittens? this is so hard!


1.) What is the best movie you have seen in the past year?

Does this question mean ‘best new release’ or just any movie that I’ve seen for the first time recently? If it’s the latter, then that would definitely be ‘The Guest’, which I wrote a little about here. If it’s ‘best newer release’, then my answer is: Doctor Strange. I really enjoy the Marvel movies but for some reason I had low expectations for this one. Benedict Cumberbatch proved me so wrong, I am very happy to say! I loved his look, I loved his accent, I loved the way I started out scoffing at the character’s selfish arrogance but grew to feel so warmly towards him by the end. I thought Tilda Swinton and Mads Mikkelsen were excellent as well.


2.) What is the most memorable live theatre and/or concert experience you’ve had in the past year?

My daughter’s Spring Concert for Middle School Choir. I was really impressed with the selections, particularly Michael Jackson’s ‘Man in the Mirror’ and Queen’s ‘Bohemian Rhapsody’.

they did both


3.) What is the best book you’ve read in the past year?

Truthfully, I’ve not read anything in the past year that could qualify. I did stumble across a Twilight fanfic that I really enjoyed though, and ended up reading more than once. It was called ‘Because of a Boy’. The story centered around a single mother of a child with Asperger’s, who meets and falls in love with a man whose father has Asperger’s as well. It made me cry several times throughout the story, not in sadness, but more for the way the families acknowledged and adapted to their circumstances so willingly. Edward understood the little boy in a way that most others could not because he had grown up with a father who was so similar. Edward not only loved his father but he genuinely liked being around him, and so he always made time for him. On the flip side, Bella was able to understand Edward’s father in a way that he never experienced as a young boy, because his parents were not as understanding and accepting as she was. One of my favorite aspects of the story was the way that Edward’s father called him several times a day to inform him of random facts. Because of this, Edward was able to bond with Bella’s son in the same way, the two often trying to stump each other. The story really touched me because of my struggles with anxiety as a child, and just imagining how much easier things could have been if I didn’t feel like I had to hide it all of the time. That, and the fact that the phrase ‘did you know’ is one that my husband and children are quite familiar with…speaking of, did you know that ‘Google’ is a misspelling of the term ‘googol’, which is the number 10 raised to the 100th power? Dan Stevens taught me that.


4.) What is your favorite photo of the past week on your mobile phone and are you willing to share it?

My son completed his Eagle Scout rank for Boy Scouts. This photo was taken at the ceremony, of him awarding me my ‘Mother’s Pin’. It’s funny to me because I had just fumbled with the pin I placed on his uniform; I couldn’t figure out how it worked (you had to push, then pull). So when it was his turn, he didn’t know how it worked either and I had to show him.


5.) What is your favorite photo ever of your favorite actor/actress?

I’m supposed to pick just one photo? Ha! That’s not happening. I’ll narrow it down to 3 instead:

and anytime he makes the ‘confused’ face, because I love the raised eyebrow.


6.) What songs are at the top of your playlist right now?

Two different songs by Sara Bareilles. The Light because I think it’s a beautiful song, both musically and lyrically.

You are the air in my breath, filling up my love soaked lungs
Such a beautiful mess, intertwined and overrun
Nothing better than this, knowing that the storm can come
You feel just like the sun
Just like the sun


and ‘I Choose You’ because I find the beat uplifting and the lyrics optimistic.
‘I could live by the light in your eyes’


7.) What is the most recent TV show that you binge-watched?

The Fall: season 3. And it was so good! I was nervous, with it being the last season and the assumption that Paul Spector would probably die. It was a lot more exciting than I anticipated, and Jamie Dornan delivered with some incredible eye acting! It feels wrong to say I ‘enjoyed’ the ending but I liked the way it turned out, and I really can’t imagine an alternate ending that would stay true to the story. All in all, this last batch of episodes was one of those rare times for me when the anticipation payed off.


8.) What time of day do you usually write and/or blog and why?

I do the writing part in the morning, because it’s quiet and I have time to myself without anything distracting me. Sometimes I post directly afterwards, while other times I’ll wait and just plug in the pics and post it in the evening before I sign off for the night (so that I can’t change my mind!)

me, before I hit ‘submit’


9.) Does your avatar have special significance and if so, what is that significance?

Yes. The ‘DS’ image is a prop (a ring) from the television show Lost, which is my all time favorite show. ‘DS’ also happens to be the initials of my last name (I have one of those capital-lowercase-capital surnames).
Dominic Monaghan as Charlie Pace


10.) In your real life, how open are you about the fact that you have a blog?

In discussions that relate to fandom, blogging or the internet, I might mention that I blog in order to help illustrate a point, but I don’t elaborate about the blog itself/what I blog about unless I’m asked about it further (which I’m usually not). It’s not so much that I’m hiding it (though I don’t exactly want to shout it from the rooftops either) but just that I don’t normally share information about myself that isn’t relevant to the conversation at hand.

I have a blog. I write about actors and movies. It’s a hobby.


11.) What are the boundaries for you in terms of how much of your real life you share on your blog?

I have shared personal stories on this blog in the past, in answer to writing prompts but I don’t refer to the people in my stories by their names, just their relationship to me; it seems like the polite thing to do. I’m pretty open about who I am in real life, I don’t blog under an alter ego because I really have no reason to. I might say some embarrassing things sometimes in relation to fangirling but generally I’m rather mild. I have thought about how therapeutic it could be to blog about more personal things, get the negativity off of my chest and out of my system, but I wouldn’t want to hurt the people I talked about. Plus, I’m afraid if I started, it would become a habit of complaining. I’ve burned my fair share of bridges on Facebook, I’ll stick to blogging about actors/movies and retweeting on Twitter instead, it’s safer!


Go Ask Alice

I came across this graphic for “pills” a fangirl can take in order to make her heart’s desires come true. I thought it was cute, and so am sharing my answers.


Amnesia- the chance to experience a story again, like it was the first time
answer: the Lord of the Rings trilogy
I read the Lord of the Rings trilogy for the first time after graduating from High School. I was feeling stuck in a holding pattern, doing what had to be done (work a menial job to save money) until I could do what I really wanted (move out of my parents house so that my adult life could begin). so I escaped to a world filled with adventure and danger through the pages of those books instead. I used to hole myself up in my room for hours, reading by candlelight, burning incense to set the mood. my parents would peek in on me from time to time just to make sure I wasn’t summoning spirits.


Sacrifice- bring a fictional character who has died, back to life
answer: Lucas North from MI-5/Spooks
the spy who jumped off a building because he couldn’t come to terms with who he used to be. even though he course corrected his mistakes by becoming someone who saved countless lives on a grand scale. even though he suffered through 8 years in a Russian prison protecting state secrets while pretending to be someone else. I think he paid his dues and then some.


Love- make a fictional character fall in love with you
answer: Steve Rogers/Captain America
because Captain America needs a soft place to land, someone to turn to at the end of the day, who he can be himself with. instead of the one everyone depends on to always carry what’s good and right upon his shoulders. the one who willingly wrestles with all the evil in the world. the one who silently suffers the loneliness of being a man out of time. the little guy (both metaphorically and physically) who suddenly found himself inside a superhuman body. providing comfort to a sweet and handsome superhero? it’s a tough job but someone’s got to do it!


Life- make a fictional character come to real life
answer: Buddy from Elf
an odd choice, but he’s just so pure (and clueless). it’s nice to think of all the smiles he could bring to people’s faces, and how many grumps he could annoy some sense into.


Travel- the chance to travel to any fictional world
answer: The Wizard of Oz
I had to think long and hard about this one. I finally settled on Oz because I was reminded of the first time I rode  “The Great Movie Ride” at Hollywood Studios, Disney World. when the tram entered the room that resembled the Munchkin Land scene, I felt like I had suddenly stepped inside a viewmaster reel of the movie, only it was better than 3D because it was a childhood fantasy brought to life! I still get choked up when I ride through that scene now, but at least I don’t full out cry like I do on It’s a Small World (every. single. time.)


Body- change bodies with any fictional character
answer: Kate Austen from Lost
although Kate is not my favorite character, more like the character that causes me the most frustration… I do covet her body. she’s physically fit without loosing her feminine shape. she has a ‘girl next door’ face (complete with freckles) while still possessing the beauty of a grown woman. and she’s neither tall nor short, but somewhere in between.


On My Telly

I saw a question and answer post on Tumblr recently that focused on television shows, so I thought I’d use it here to highlight what I’m currently watching.

Pick your five favorite TV shows:

1.) Person of Interest

2.) Gotham

3.) Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.

4.) Big Bang Theory

5.) Lost (this one is no longer on the air but it’s my favorite, so I’m including it!)


⭐ Who is your favorite character in no.2? Edward Nygma

(Gotham) I just love his nerdy, sunny disposition. He’s cute and he’s sweet and very clever. I think most of his coworkers dismiss him as being awkward and oblivious because he’s so smart but he will eventually become The Riddler…



⭐ Who is your least favorite character in no.1? Dominic

(Person of Interest) Dominic is a new mob boss that has come into town and is trying to take over Elias’ turf. I don’t like him because he’s just a thug in disguise. Elias has an order to things, a system of sorts–whereas Dominic just throws his weight around and wants to be top dog, regardless of the consequences.

⭐ What’s your favorite episode of no.4? The Bath Item Gift Hypothesis

(Big Bang Theory) The last scene is my favorite out of the whole series: when Penny gifts Sheldon a napkin with Leonard Nimoy’s signature. She doesn’t understand what a monumental thing it is that he also wiped his mouth on it…I knew I was truly a geek the first time I watched it and my mind automatically went to cloning.



⭐ What is your favorite season of no.5? Season 4

(Lost) The show really kicked up into upper gear that season. The group was split between following Jack or following Locke, a rescue team had finally arrived on the island, Juliet’s connection to the Island’s inhabitants was revealed…and Desmond started jumping through time. I loved the time-travel aspect, with Daniel Faraday and his parents, but particularly Penny being Desmond’s “Constant”: his anchor in time.

⭐ What is your favorite relationship in no.3? FitzSimmons (Leo Fitz & Jemma Simmons)

(Agents of Shield) It’s not a romantic pairing per se but you know they really do care for each other. They’re the youngest of the crew and often thought of as one unit because they make up the scientific research team. I like the strong bond that they share (and also their accents).


⭐ Who is your anti-relationship in no.1? John and Root

(Person of Interest) While they may seem like a decent match because of their shared trait of staying on task and not losing sight of the objective, their single-minded ways would cancel each other out and I fear we’d just be left with a kind of robotic mentality between them.


⭐ How long have you watched no.4? about eight years, I think.

(Big Bang Theory) it’s in it’s tenth season now but I don’t think I really started watching episodes in real time until the third season. I’ve watched all of the episodes many times over in reruns though!

⭐ How did you become interested in no.3? it’s an off-shoot of the Avengers movies.

(Agents of Shield) My husband is more of a regular watcher of the show than I am but I’ve been watching more of it  lately.

⭐ Who is your favorite actor in no.2? Donal Logue

(Gotham) I know him from the sitcom Grounded for Life and have enjoyed seeing him pop up in things since then. his Gotham character, Harvey, is a street-wise cynical police detective.


⭐ Which show do you prefer: 1, 4, or 5? 5 of course! Lost is my favorite show of all time.


⭐ Which show have you seen more episodes of: 1 or 3? 1

(Person of Interest) I’ve been a regular watcher from it’s first season.  regardless though, Agents of Shield is only in it’s second season while Person of Interest is in it’s fourth.

⭐ If you could be anyone from no.4, who would you be? Penny

(Big Bang Theory) because she owns who she is and is not constantly trying to fit in with the others. while she may feel intimidated by their intellect and sometimes makes an effort to try and keep up, she’s her own person as well and doesn’t put on airs.


⭐ How would you kill off your favorite character in no.1? John would die saving Harold

(Person of Interest) I really enjoy the unlikely friendship and respect between the two of them. John feels that Harold saved his life by giving him a purpose. he would not only willingly return the favor but I think he feels that Harold is too important to humanity, and the forces that they are fighting against, to loose.


⭐ Would a no.2/3 crossover work? maybe

Gotham and Agents of Shield are both set in comic book worlds, after all. Gotham tries to ground itself in the foundation of a somewhat reality based gritty city. Agents of Shield, on the other hand, centers around physical super powers and aliens. The latter sets it’s foundations in governmental type protection agencies though, so I’m sure they could share a storyline involving the same criminals.

⭐ Pair two characters in no.2 that would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple: Alfred and Leslie

(Gotham) I might be stretching with this one, what with the age difference and current employment responsibilities, but I could see straight-laced Alfred falling for the good doctor. She possesses a level of emotional detachment that is balanced with a childlike sense of adventure, so I think she could have fun getting under Alfred’s skin.

⭐ Overall, which show had a better cast: 3 or 5? 5, hands down

(Lost) Granted, Lost did run for six intricate seasons, so it had a lot of cast members coming through it’s doors. It was very much a character driven show though, which is one of the many reasons why I enjoy it so much. Aside from the main group of characters that made up each season, the secondary characters were just as enjoyable to watch. One of my favorites that ran throughout most of the continuing storyline was Richard. I really wish they would have expanded upon his character more.


⭐ Which show has a better soundtrack: 1, 4, or 5? that would be no.5, again.

(Lost) Person of Interest is an action show and Big Bang Theory is a comedy, not a lot of opportunity for meaningful background music. Lost was a drama with recurring themes, character recognition, and various types of emotional turmoil; I always felt that the music choices really enhanced what I was watching on screen.