Sometimes my words get away from me and I end up writing long drawn out missives in the comment section of my posts, impassioned speeches that can make me slightly embarrassed when I read back over them. so I tone them down with editing, or just end up scrapping them altogether.
In a recent conversation that centered on the age of the actors I admire and how I enjoy the younger ones with as much gusto as the ones that are closer to my own age, I went off on one such impassioned speech. I decided to rein myself in and change direction,
but I thought what I had written described my feelings about this hobby and what it means to me rather well, so I saved it to share in a post instead:
fangirling, to me, is about appreciation for the actor and his craft, as well as the personal character of the man and his personality. as I admire those qualities from a distance, I see parts of myself in him that I like and that gives me confidence to show those parts of myself more. I also see parts of myself in him that maybe I don’t feel so great about but seeing how he deals with them can give me a different take on it that I may try applying to myself. I learn so much through following along with his career, the places he visits for filming and promotional events, the vast array of characters he portrays, and people he talks to while doing so. when he gives us peeks into who he is off screen by mentioning his favorite books, movies, music, food, clothes, hobbies, the causes he supports, the things he thinks about, I’m more likely to try those things for myself. maybe I’ll like them too or maybe I won’t, maybe he’ll change my mind about something or maybe he won’t, but it gives me experience and exposure to things I might never have had otherwise. the physical attractiveness is there too, I’m not going to pretend that it’s not, but it’s more about learning through him, seeing and experiencing things through his eyes, enjoying the daily connection that I’ve formed as he makes me smile and laugh and look forward to whatever comes next. that positive energy radiates out from me, making me a happier, nicer, more appreciative, open minded person to the people I have in my life and come into contact with. the age of these muses don’t matter to me, both older and younger men bring a multitude of experiences and outlooks that enhance my life. how’s that for a passionate speech?